Author Archive: Patricia Lee

JY and the Deer

It happened just now, 11:15 pm. Another attack at the throat by stalker. I called in spiritual support and received an image:

JY is carrying a dead deer on his shoulders. I asked again. I looked again and the image is clear. JY is carrying a dead deer on his shoulders.

What does this represent? Is it his burden to bear after tormenting and abusing the female species represented by one of the most gentle, feminine animals of the forest? And/or does Deer represent Grief that is his to bear?


A living, breathing Deer

Stalker Abuse

He is still at it after 18 years! Harassing and abusing me by stalking and hacking my communication systems. I met him at a Wilderness Awareness School event and learned he was the founder and a world renowned expert at tracking and bird language. I fell for him (like so many other women) because he sounded as if he cared about the wilderness and Mother Earth. I walked away from him but he continues to hang on.

He uses psychic skills to manipulate me, much like dark VooDoo. I am not as sophisticated mentally. I have little interest in controlling—and harming—others through focused intention. I am spontaneous and light hearted. My wings are no match for this heavy and dark intruder. So, the only recourse I have is to expose him and say his name: Jon Young.

It is time to expose the dark ones who are abusive and corrupt. The ones who want to consume and control feminine space. It is judgment day as cosmic intelligence separates the wheat from the chaff. I, for one, hold up my shield of Light. Love excludes as much as it includes. Some energies cannot occupy the same space. Such is the battle of Good and Evil.

Expansion/Contraction

I woke up to a sheet of teal color via mind’s inner Eye or what I like to call Dragon Eye. Teal is the color of the tall “commander’s” robe who stands at my right. I see him through inner Eye and heard “Galactic Federation.” I will try to draw him and add the color. I need a hypnotherapy session to go deeper or I need to change my diet to go deeper. This diet thing has been the most difficult because food is emotional comfort for me and that goes deep. Gotta release old patterns to let new ones in.

So much happens in our sleep. We time travel to spend time with beings in other dimensions, we unravel codes in the subconscious and we get clarity on the next piece of information/inspiration in our expanding consciousness.

I see and know duality as male (+) and female (-). These two energy forces that flow through my Dragon body have one Source but express differently as parts of One whole. Lately I am experiencing these two as Expansion and Contraction. I woke up to this new piece of awareness:

Expansion = Masculine = Achieving = Doing

Contraction = Feminine = Being = Listening

Human activity has been masculine for a long, long time and it is destroying life on Earth. Contraction has to be part of the equation. Feminine Being brings balance to the whole. Without it we perish.

Spiral Story

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I am sensing/feeling/seeing (intuiting) cycles moving through rhythms of expansion and contraction. My personal journey of moving away from home years ago feels like expansion and now my interest in moving back home feels like contraction. As I was driving to work yesterday I asked myself if this (+/-) energy in motion (e-motion) was a circle. No, that did not make sense. So, I stayed with it, letting the circle speak, and saw a spiral! Yes that does make sense! I have been seeing spirals for months in my Sunday drum meditations. And I have been drawing their circular lines. What is their story?

The following chapter Kundalini Dragon, from my book S/Dragon ~ How I Found My Wings, tells of my first spiral sighting.

Itzhak Bentova, a Czech-born Israeli scientist, inventor, mystic and author, and early pioneer of consciousness studies, said that consciousness is “the capacity of a system to respond to stimuli.” The following dream and visions were just that stimuli to spark, within me, a new wave of consciousness.

Dream, 2/1993
A creature, spiral in design, emerges from a dark mist. I pick it up and peel something away. Salamander has come to me! Tenderly protecting it with my hands, I look for a place to set it free near the forest for protection and water for nourishment.
Dreamtime salamander had an emotional impact on me that emanated from my heart and solar plexus chakras. It was an arcing energy—circular and motherly as I birthed a new part of myself. Salamander was so dear to me that I hired a local Native American artist to draw a logo of it for my business cards and website, Community Threads.

Vision, 4/1993
Strange energies present this day. I am irritable and withdrawn. I see salamander mouth above me, larger than me. I see rough, scaly flesh and wings. I think, Flying … and … dragon! Is my salamander turning into a dragon? He’s much bigger now.

Vision, 7/1993
I look down the neck of a dragon, seeing above his eyes. I see what he sees. I am inside dragon, looking directly through his eyes. I have felt motherly toward salamander and dragon—as if they were something external to nurture. This new sensation of wrapping around something inside me is a feeling of integration from within—I am dragon!

Author Mary Scott writes in Kundalini in the Physical World, (PenquinGroup/1983), “All energies at work in bodies become Kundalini forces as soon as they enter dense matter. Similarly all becomes part of the earth as soon as it manifests within its field of forces.”
My dense matter had been the recipient of Kundalini and this “field of forces” had much more to reveal.

Home

I left my home town of Tacoma twice to find myself and a spiritual community and I did find deeper parts of myself and many spiritual communities.

Many months ago I sensed an inner shift and that I wanted to be back home with family. I mentioned this to a daughter and let it unfold. My plan to move was June but due to unexpected circumstances I am moving sooner than expected. This is significant in that karma with one individual ends as I cut the cords. It is Love that moves me home. Love that is within and not somewhere else to be sought after. It feels like a complete circle and I know what that means—-a new circle and cycle begins with more lessons about Love, Truth and Life.

What do stress tests say about making big changes such as moving and finding a new job all at the same time? They stress the stress. Me? My backbone is strong, my nerves like steel and my heart red hot. So here I go!

Sacred Sexuality

I wrote the following comment in response to David Wilcock’s video What Is Human Beings Means?

It’s 4:25 am and I am feeling internal pressure to say something I have never said in public:

Words matter in the same way food matters. Words create an external environment in the same way food creates an internal environment and both are alchemical—transmuting lead to gold or lead to more lead.

positive.negativeI never allowed my children to say “fuck” in my presence. When possible I continue to request this from others. Why? Why do I feel so strongly about this? Because the word represents a sacred act of union between male and female. Many people on earth throw the word around in the same way they throw their bodies around without any consciousness of the alchemy they are creating for themselves, others and the planet.

People tell me that it’s just a slang word and I need to “get over it”. The problem is I experienced union between my Sacred Feminine (intuition) and Sacred Masculine (logic) years ago when I started my spiritual journey. Their intimately honest relationship (logic backing up emotion/emotion backing up logic) activated my wing chakra and introduced me to Dragon.

There is nothing more intimate or sacred than this internal fire of sexual union. So, I am sensitive to and conscious of this word and now (since I’ve heard David talk about certain food as “weaponry”) I see that profanity is used in the same way: to keep our vibration low and to keep our planet cloaked in dark toxicity.

I challenge anyone to open up mind (male) and heart (female) and let new words of light pour through. Let this sacred sexuality play out from within and let this magical way of being in the world but not of it make a positive/healthy difference.

David, thanks for your apology after speaking the word. You are conscious whereas most are not. My Sacred Feminine and Sacred Masculine are grateful for this safe place, this platform, to speak out—to be sexually active.

My Dragon is happy about this, S/He is flying high!

Photon DNA = Sacred Marriage

I am now listening to Corey Goode and David Wilcock via YouTube and appreciate hearing them talk about Angels, Blue Avians and the value of “going within.”

In David Wilcock’s The DNA Changing I hear that “the photon carries the code for life” via the DNA molecule.

This affirms the role of the master pineal gland and it’s reception and distribution of Light through the chakra system, endocrine system, etc. The master gland has a mistress, the pituitary gland and these two create the “sacred marriage” that I describe in my book S/He Dragon ~ How I Found My Wings.

What if we taught our children about their inner relationship? Would they better see sutratmahow sacred they are?

Reptilian Brain Stem

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We are Serpent. Just look at our core!!

The back of my neck has played a significant role in my spiritual journey. I am now connecting the dots and end up at the reptilian brain stem that connects the brain and the spinal column.

Neck snap:
At age thirty I experienced a “snap” at the back of neck that left me paralyzed for three days. This sudden Kundalini awakening changed my brain body as I was jolted out of Beta brain wave of ordinary reality.

Dream of snake wrapped around my neck:
I am walking with a man who is taller than I am. We see a snake. It wants to get close to me and I freak out—a physical snake is different from a mystical one. It wraps around my neck and I consciously work to stay calm. I focus and attune to the snake. I feel its presence around my neck moving left to right, then hear it make a sharp sound at, and then in, my right ear. The man unwraps the snake from my neck very carefully because it’s tangled in my hair. He lifts the snake high. I think he’s going to throw it but he gently places it on the ground. The man then strokes my head and neck.

Neck and cobra:
I had a massage recently. The masseuse started at the back of my neck with the axis and atlas vertebrae. Instantly a snake’s face appeared with its coiled body beneath. I asked what it was doing. It started to dance. So we danced! Yes, a happy dance! Then I saw many coiled snakes spread out across dark space.

The reptilian brain stem is a gateway for the pineal and pituitary glands and chakras.
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Return

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I left my home town, Tacoma, twice. The last time, 18 years ago, I landed in Woodinville to find myself and a spiritual community. In those 18 years I experienced many community groups, teachers, classes, retreats, books, classes, events, people. A few months ago I felt something coming to an end. Something had stopped. (I blogged about it under the title Pause on December 30.)

It is clear now what this is about. June is the month when a nanny job ends and the house I share is being sold. So, I am returning to my home town! I have sensed this move for months and talked to a daughter about it to test the waters. How would they feel about their “different” mother/grandmother being around more often?

I think about the 18 years here in Woodinville. I like it here and actually feel loved by this city. Isn’t that an odd thing to say? I guess it’s simply a reflection of my feelings about being here—-feelings that go both ways. I will miss all the trees that I’ve come to know. The development, however, is heartbreaking. We have to fight to keep our agriculture valley, we have to fight to keep these trees. So, in my last few months here I continue to do weekly drum meditation in its woods, I continue to love the children I take care of. Returning home is also an act of love. It’s as if more pieces of myself have come together, integrating who I am. And in this new sense of wholeness I get to return home. A complete circle.

The mental mind needs discipline. No, you don’t have to know right now where your new nanny job will be or your new living space. Yes, you can take those steps in a couple of months. In the meantime stay in the moment and learn more about Love—-spiritual Love.

Which reminds me! Since my volcanic eruption with my housemate I am noticing a shift at my core and in my landscape. She is no longer pushing my buttons, getting on my nerves. Why? Because a word keeps popping up from my sub-conscious. That word is “irrelevant.” Odd, how a volcanic eruption can create space for newness. My brain-body is so much like the collective earth-body. We are so Goddess!!

My life-long journey has been about loving myself, others, my community, planet and, with my recent ufology activity, my galaxy and universe. Whew!! That’s quite a ride. Maybe I’ll go home to rest and just be myself with nothing more to accomplish or do spiritually. Now, perhaps my work is simply to Be. That sounds like a fun vacation—-it feels like flying—-a kite flying in wind currents safe, protected, loved.

Cobra Activation

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I had a massage yesterday on Martin Luther King Day. The masseuse started at the back of my neck with the axis and atlas vertebrae. Instantly a snake’s face appeared with its coiled body beneath. I remembered a similar image from a Trance session I did last year with Mary Kennedy (shown). I questioned the snake as to what it was doing. It started to dance. So we danced! Yes, a happy dance! Then I saw many coiled snakes spread out across dark space.

My snake represents the Dragon Body which channels Kundalini energy from subtle Heaven to gross Earth and Earth to Heaven. It represents the alchemical process of transmuting lead to gold or the dark ego body to the angelic body…as in the snake shedding its skin.

Snake appeared on the day of the RETURN OF LIGHT ACTIVATION 01-20-2019 / 01-21-2019. “This meditation helps the Light forces to ground the energy of Light on the surface of the planet to resolve the deadlock between the Light and the dark forces, finally setting humanity free.” Snake affirms this activation on Earth !!

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