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I left my home town, Tacoma, twice. The last time, 18 years ago, I landed in Woodinville to find myself and a spiritual community. In those 18 years I experienced many community groups, teachers, classes, retreats, books, classes, events, people. A few months ago I felt something coming to an end. Something had stopped. (I blogged about it under the title Pause on December 30.)

It is clear now what this is about. June is the month when a nanny job ends and the house I share is being sold. So, I am returning to my home town! I have sensed this move for months and talked to a daughter about it to test the waters. How would they feel about their “different” mother/grandmother being around more often?

I think about the 18 years here in Woodinville. I like it here and actually feel loved by this city. Isn’t that an odd thing to say? I guess it’s simply a reflection of my feelings about being here—-feelings that go both ways. I will miss all the trees that I’ve come to know. The development, however, is heartbreaking. We have to fight to keep our agriculture valley, we have to fight to keep these trees. So, in my last few months here I continue to do weekly drum meditation in its woods, I continue to love the children I take care of. Returning home is also an act of love. It’s as if more pieces of myself have come together, integrating who I am. And in this new sense of wholeness I get to return home. A complete circle.

The mental mind needs discipline. No, you don’t have to know right now where your new nanny job will be or your new living space. Yes, you can take those steps in a couple of months. In the meantime stay in the moment and learn more about Love—-spiritual Love.

Which reminds me! Since my volcanic eruption with my housemate I am noticing a shift at my core and in my landscape. She is no longer pushing my buttons, getting on my nerves. Why? Because a word keeps popping up from my sub-conscious. That word is “irrelevant.” Odd, how a volcanic eruption can create space for newness. My brain-body is so much like the collective earth-body. We are so Goddess!!

My life-long journey has been about loving myself, others, my community, planet and, with my recent ufology activity, my galaxy and universe. Whew!! That’s quite a ride. Maybe I’ll go home to rest and just be myself with nothing more to accomplish or do spiritually. Now, perhaps my work is simply to Be. That sounds like a fun vacation—-it feels like flying—-a kite flying in wind currents safe, protected, loved.

Cobra Activation

I had a massage yesterday on Martin Luther King Day. The masseuse started at the back of my neck with the axis and atlas vertebrae. Instantly a snake’s face appeared with its coiled body beneath. I remembered a similar image from a Trance session I did last year with Mary Kennedy (shown). I questioned the snake as to what it was doing. It started to dance. So we danced! Yes, a happy dance! Then I saw many coiled snakes spread out across dark space.

My snake represents the Dragon Body which channels Kundalini energy from subtle Heaven to gross Earth and Earth to Heaven. It represents the alchemical process of transmuting lead to gold or the dark ego body to the angelic body…as in the snake shedding its skin.

Snake appeared on the day of the RETURN OF LIGHT ACTIVATION 01-20-2019 / 01-21-2019. “This meditation helps the Light forces to ground the energy of Light on the surface of the planet to resolve the deadlock between the Light and the dark forces, finally setting humanity free.” Snake affirms this activation on Earth !!



volcanic eruption

Enlightenment is a process of knowing one’s Shadow and Light.

I’ve been challenged the past few months by my housemate (a temporary situation). She is a perfectionist and I experience that as controlling. We collide when I am not perfect—-when I forget something or do something abnormal like leaving a door open or forgetting to turn off a light. When she goes into offense I go into defense with red hot anger.

Last night as I was contemplating the situation and asking for higher guidance I heard “Krishnamurti.” I asked, “Don’t you mean Yogananda.” “No, Krishnamurti,” was the reply. So I looked him up on dear Google and saw that this philosopher speaks of self love, love of others and relationships. This morning I woke up to revelations about my anger. Thank you!

Why the reservoir of hot lava in my subconscious? Because I have been different all my life and as a result laughed at and ridiculed. This hurts because I want to fit in and be loved. This has also created deep wounds. So, how do I respond to people when I don’t fit their mold? Yes, I could read a book on “how to” or listen to an expert but as usual I prefer to listen within and with that I receive internal teachers and teachings.

With this new awareness about inner wounds and thus grief (my housemate has her own reservoir of wounds and grief) I will continue to be myself—-both Shadow and Light. In that I let others do the same. Will my hot lava settle down now that I know myself better? Will I have new ways to communicate? Will I love myself more and care less about what others think?

There are many ways to respond to others emotionally. One can suppress feelings and watch them erupt at a later time or express them in the moment and get to know oneself.

I now see how Light balances and smooths out shadows. And this is why enlightenment is a process and not a destination. Enlightenment is loving, forgiving—-an evolving spiral.

Reflective Light

I like to respond to others on Facebook via reflective light. I wrote this today and realize it has much to do with my new cycle. I feel less in that “pause” darkness now.

“I am reflecting Light when I share what others around me are contributing. It’s like our collective Light is bouncing off one another as in a star system as well as a crystal.”

BTW…I just “got” that intuitive hit that reflective light and collective light is all about Love.

A Pause

I am in a pause and not sure what it means. I feel emptied of ambition and wonder if it has to do with turning 70 in November. I have written and spoken about my spiritual process for 45 years and I think I am done. It’s as if there is nothing more to say. How odd is that? For me, very odd! I wonder if this new process and cycle has to do more with others than with myself. It does look like I continue to write my ongoing story of S/He Dragon. What is this creature up to now?

Drum Meditation

Drum meditation is not passive. It is an activity that includes giving and receiving. “Feedback loops” come to mind. How do words come in like that–spontaneously–without the mental mind figuring it out but rather simply being a receiver? Seems to me it’s a mind that is both passive in receptivity (feminine) and active with information (masculine). Is this not “intelligence?” If so our education system needs a serious overhaul. Learning from the inside out rather than outside in. How many are interested in going within to learn this new language: The Language of the Sacred Feminine and Masculine, The Language of S/He?

Sunday morning, I stood in a new location to drum. This branch with decaying leaves of Autumn also held birthing buds of Spring. What a story of Oneness this told! Just like a spiral and the staircase (that came through during this meditation) energy moves in two directions: inward and outward, contracting and expanding as one flowing motion. I invite you to step into this flowing motion with drumming, rattling, chanting, praying, etc. It will add sparks of enchantment to your ordinary life.

November’s Revelations

November 11, 2018
Drumming, I stood in front of the Hobbit Door stump and went in and up becoming one with tree. “Imagination is in the Eye of the beholder” are words that followed. This is a good example of how the Feminine leads with intuitive sensations and the Masculine follows with words of logic. Without the Third Eye Chakra (pineal gland) one is trapped in Third Dimension with its square lines and flat spaces. At the end of the drumming meditation a golden spiral moved from drum outward and upward toward Sun. Logic spoke again: “What is the difference between sunlight and spiritual Light?” Is it One energetic life force? If so, we are swimming in–as a people and as a planet–Higher Power !!

Ground Up Spiral
November 18, 2018
Drumming, I stood in front of the Hobbit Door and stayed close in, grounded. Rhinoceros came into mind’s eye, large and vivid. There is much written about the meaning of Rhino under Totem Animals. For me Rhino represents a “grounding” presence which is what my new cycle is about. A friend in the UFOlogy community suggested “Unicorn” as a connection and that makes sense. I was reminded, when reading a children’s book to the little girls I nanny, that some Unicorn horns are spiral in design—magical! There is that spiral again that has been showing up for months in my drum meditations. As I closed this drumming meditation a golden spiral moved out from me into the universe. Why has the spiral shifted directions moving out and up now instead of down?

November 21, 2018
Lucid dream: Standing on a high cliff I spread my arms and dive into the unknown. I fly toward a surface and sense it fast approaching. I land gently, hands first and then my head and body—like the child’s pose in yoga. I am suspended in this space/time (like a freeze frame image) and can’t move or talk. People gather around me but I cannot respond. Then something shifts and I come into this consciousness. This suspension is like the experience I had when Vimal Soneji introduced me to the mudras. I am sensing that this freeze frame suspension is going to happen on a massive scale. Will it be at the time of polar shift or when Galactic Craft become visible to the human eye?


My S/He Dragon brain with its Feminine seeing (images) and Masculine logic (words) has led me on a 45 year quest. Recent revelations make me aware that a cycle has ended–as parts of one whole reveal themselves! I will attempt to explain this using images and words that have come from within (not from a book, teacher, guru, church, etc–I call this the Language of the Sacred Feminine).

The image of X (1) played a role in my recent drumming meditation. It symbolizes the unification of Heaven above and Earth below and represents union, communion and communication–a fusion of the parts of one whole. And that whole is ME!! The spiraling energy that wrapped around me (see previous post) now had more to say.

In my recent drum meditation at this hobbit stump I saw a snake/serpent (2). Then I saw two serpents (3). Then there was a straight line between them (4).

I do not analyze or try to figure out the images that come through. I simply observe. A short time after the meditation logic had the two serpents encircling the straight line–the Caduceus (5)!

A new Facebook friend, writer O’ran Ruadh, wrote to me about Dragonborn, the Dragonship and more. This inspirational support from one who also speaks “Dragon” added spiritual substance to my quest that helped pull all the parts together:

Light download = spiral
Spiral = Sperpent
Serpent = Dragon
Dragon = DNA spiral
We are Dragon born
We are Spiral born
We are Light born

Download X


As a Seer this energetic spiral is what I saw in my drumming meditation last Sunday, 9 am. For weeks I had been seeing spirals in relationship to planet Earth. This time the spiral enveloped me! I was inside the spiral and was reminded of a teaching from the Emissaries of Divine Light: an X represents the crossover point of Heaven and Earth. In my personal experience this spiral also represents Kundalini energy which I have mentioned on my blog

How does this spiraling energy apply to a larger universe? Is it associated with portals, teleportation, levitation, intuitive hits or downloads? Is it representative of a universal force?

Matter is receptive. Subtle energy is positive. When the two opposites fuse a charged spiraling circuitry is activated. Without this unified force our world is flat, void, dark and dying.

Raise both arms skyward in a V formation. Invite this spiraling energetic force into you, your life and in so doing into Planet Earth. This is “the force that unifies the parts of one whole” (channeled words in this moment). This is what democracy looks like: free flowing inclusion called Love.

Dark Face

yin-yang dragon
I saw a dark, menacing face last night as I went to bed. I know this face but have not seen it for years. At one point I drew the face and named him. Last night I asked Angel Michael to respond.

These are dark times. Dark forces have human minds in chaos speaking in many tongues. This lack of unity within humans and between them has reached fever pitch on our planet. We are in crisis.

Angels are present—as I witnessed the other night. This battle of Dark and Light plays out at all levels. Each soul chooses, moment by moment, one or the other. Call on your Angel(s) for guidance.

Darkness is merely the absence of Light. Shine your Light and attract order in your life and on this planet. Yes, you are a significant part of the whole. Your light is needed.