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Chemical Bonding

Relationships change with chemistry change. Chemical bonds change relationship bonds. There are many books written about bonding in relationships.

I’m considering that the delicate pinks/blues mosaic pattern I saw around my hand and body during the recent Niagara Coherence Healing were chemical bonds. Odd that when I leaned in with my head (thinking the space would feel like a pillow) it was a hard surface. Just now I got “crystal”.  Is this not the aura or energy field around matter? And is this not the space where relationship changes? What relationship? The one between Light and Matter.

It explains why I do and don’t feel like spending time with someone or a group of people. It’s in the chemical water and the chemical heat around matter. Feelings are chemical! What feelings do I listen to and trust? What feelings teach me about myself and others?

Drip. Drip. Chemical molecules on the move changing matter. What is the chemical molecule of Love? “dopamine, oxytocin, adrenaline, and other “happy hormones.” 

The love chemical is often associated with sexual orgasm. What if every chakra has its own orgasm, its own full circle of bliss? So full that it bubbles over in ecstasy? I’m experiencing this now with my throat chakra as I learn to communicate more in 3D. Communication ripples sound waves through this crystal “wave” around me. Mostly harmonious. Sometimes not. I learn from all of it.

https://chem.libretexts.org/Courses/Howard_University/General_Chemistry%3A_An_Atoms_First_Approach/Unit_2%3A__Molecular_Structure/Chapter_4%3A_Ionic_Bonding/Chapter_4.0%3A_What_is_a_Chemical_Bond

Chemical bonding is the general term used to describe the forces that hold atoms together in molecules and ions. Three idealized types of bonding are ionic bonding, in which positively and negatively charged ions are held together by electrostatic forces, covalent bonding, in which electron pairs are shared between atoms and metallic bonding where electrons are shared across large volumes of metal atoms ionic cores. All models of chemical bonding have three common features: atoms form bonds because the products are more stable than the isolated atoms; bonding interactions are characterized by a particular energy (the bond energy or lattice energy), which is the amount of energy required to dissociate the substance into its components; and bonding interactions have an optimal internuclear distance, the bond distance.”

It’s as if matter has a circle of energetic chemistry around it. Do I want to be in this or that circle? Am I being attracted? Is it drawing me to it, into it? It’s surprising when attraction turns the opposite direction. Do I crank the wheel back around and put effort into the relationships? The answer again is in the feelings of the water and the heat.

Breaking Ground

New breaking of ground in my life has to do with a male friend in the book club. The ease of our conversations and their stimuli is nothing I’ve experienced before. It’s definitely something I’ve asked for: spiritual intimacy using the spoken word—in 3D with a male.

Words—parts of intelligent language—are alive and waiting to express themselves in relationship with humans. I see them as bubbles creating more bubbles of vitality. Maybe this “bubble” today is the “bond” I spoke of last night in conversation. We bond through honest and open words woven together in conversation.

How have I/we substituted for this nourishing activity of communication?  Have we used food, sex, gossip, gambling, alcohol, drugs, social media?

Words deliver information and feelings (nouns). And words are carried on feelings (verbs). Dad never talked about his feelings. My two husbands never talked about their feelings. My telepathic relationships never talked about feelings. This heart-throat looping communication is a critical piece of relationship and it’s been missing.

The suppression of words and feelings leave their mark in deep subterranean matter and come up sooner or later as upheaval. Words are alive— waiting to express and fulfill their energetic purpose.

I’m asking for more conversation and friendship. I’m cultivating new ground! This garden will grow and rewire individual brains and the collective global brain.

February 2, 2019

A Facebook memory I want to remember:

We are serpent! Just look at our core!

The back of my neck has played a significant role in my spiritual journey. I am now connecting the dots and end up at the reptilian brain stem that connects the brain and the spinal column.

Neck snap:
At age thirty I experienced a “snap” at the back of neck that left me paralyzed for three days. This sudden Kundalini awakening changed my brain body as I was jolted out of Beta brain wave.

Dream of snake wrapped around my neck:
I am walking with a man who is taller than I am. We see a snake. It wants to get close to me and I freak out—a physical snake is different from a mystical one. It wraps around my neck and I consciously work to stay calm. I focus and attune to the snake. I feel its presence around my neck moving left to right, then hear it make a sharp sound at, and then in, my right ear. The man unwraps the snake from my neck very carefully because it’s tangled in my hair. He lifts the snake high. I think he’s going to throw it but he gently places it on the ground. The man then strokes my head and neck.

Neck and cobra:
I had a massage recently. The masseuse started at the back of my neck with the axis and atlas vertebrae. Instantly a snake’s face appeared with its coiled body beneath. I asked what it was doing. It started to dance. So we danced! Yes, a happy dance! Then I saw many coiled snakes spread out across dark space.

The reptilian brain stem is a gateway for the pineal and pituitary glands / chakras.

Grounded Feelings Turn

I follow the path of feelings. Are they now originating from feet and and ground to turn, turn, turn?

It feels awkward to be in a book club and not have the ability to follow logical conversations. I’m in a different vibrational zone and my heart-mind-body doesn’t “collapse” to match others. Am I supposed to learn the technique of going from alpha and delta to beta at a quick pace? This feels like wearing different masks and that I’d have to put on a tight, linear one. Being expanded and having to collapse gives me a headache. It’s like a creaking hinge or nails on a chalkboard. Repulsive! Is this a box to change? I listen to my circle zones (brain waves) for answers.

I do get beyond my discomfort in book club to enjoy a variety of personalities. My senses are at play—it’s child like. There are some personalities I resonate with even though they don’t speak my language, talk my talk. I will follow along with them and let the electromagnetic field of two reveal its path. So many relationships have come and gone like dead wires with no more life. Some stay grounded. It’s called Life.

Learning curves. How many do I choose? I follow the lines of feelings and let them reveal the next turn.

That was a big moment for my body to deliver Lotus Meditation. On my feet I was grounded strong. Sitting afterward was shaky. Thank you feet. Thank you ground. 

Four directions. Four elements. Four seasons. Turn, turn, turn.

Circle

Evolving Hearts Meditation 5 am

Less time/space in purification

More time/space in creativity

Purification as one part of the flow

Creativity another part

Earth current purifies (dark mud)

Energy current fills this empty space with creative potential

It’s a new balance of expression

Charged with vitality

It’s a new expression of Love

Between Earth & Sky

Between Matter & Quantum 

Sun Rises in the East and expands all around

Four directions

Four elements 

A safe and sacred 

Circle of Life

Circle of Life

Evolving Hearts Meditation 5 am

Less time/space in purification
More time/space in creativity

Purification as one part of the flow
Creativity another part

Earth current purifies (dark mud)
Energy current fills this empty space with creative potential

New balance of expression
Charged with vitality

New expression of Love
Between Earth & Sky
Between Matter & Quantum 

Sun Rises in the East and expands all around

Four directions
Four elements 
Four seasons
A sacred 
Circle of Life

Grounding Meditation

A Grounding Meditation is taking shape for tomorrow’s book club. Today it takes on wings! Meaning it is to be done standing with arm motions. I love talking with my hands and arms! Due to tech limitations I won’t have that full body opportunity on Zoom. However, I’ll communicate the Spirit of it. I love being the ground for Spirit to manifest !!

Grounding

How does body feel safe when heart doesn’t? How does ground move when heart feels at an impasse? Must be a by-pass in place—beyond ego. So much new territory these days with new lines of breath work.

True and full grounding includes breathing tubes of Spirit, Heart and Mind. “Let not your Heart be troubled.”

Seamless Reality

A new box is a new Petri dish full of living organisms ready to thrive.

Thank you Logic for the incentive to create my Symbol and add structural and emotional intentions/goals. It’s so new for me to do this detail work. 

New focus includes the six senses and expands from there.

Yesterday morning I was sensing “today” as a day at home and “tomorrow” as a day at work. The new sensation was that they weren’t separate days. They were one seam, one flow of fabric. I have a chapter in my S/He Dragon book called Seamless Reality. “Weaving new identity and reality is not for the weak-hearted. Within tangled threads are toxic demons to face, wrestle and release. As a collective body of people living a mythic journey, we have an incredible opportunity to weave a new planetary story for ourselves and for Gaia.”

An amazing image of a full rainbow captured at 30,000 feet by pilot Lloyd J. Ferraro.